but I think I’ve forgotten

I’ve forgotten how,

how to love you.

It was all second nature

oceans apart, but by your side,

loving, laughing and living,

separately but together.

But I’m through, it’s over,

tired of being alone,

feeling empty.

the truth is;

Loving you used to be so easy

but I think I’ve forgotten

I’ve forgotten how,

how to love you.

while your body is entwined

with some one else.

Do you ever say my name

when you think they can’t hear?

Do you ever wonder

if we’ll ever it there,

to where we’re meant to be?

Do you ever think about me

what I’m doing, how I’m feeling?

Do you ever say my name

when the world is asleep?

Do you ever wonder

what the future holds?

Do you ever think of me

while staring at the stars.

Do you ever say my name

into the distant wind?

Do you ever wonder

if I feel the same?

Do you ever think of me

and how good we were?

Do you ever say my name

by mistake?

Do you ever wonder

What went wrong?

Do you ever think of me

while your body is entwined

with some one else.

Do you ever say my name

when you think they can’t hear?

Do you ever wonder

if we’ll ever it there,

to where we’re meant to be?

Did you ever think we’d make it?

Did you ever believe we’d make it?

Did you ever want to make it?

The one I’ve always turned to,

A shoulder to cry on,

Some one to lean on

Some one to laugh with,

Some one to while away the hours,

Now my hearts conflicted,

It makes so much sense

It can’t be true.

To love you in a way meant for two

But not for us.

To let you in completely

Would be a dream come true

As cliche as it sounds.

Let’s jump right in,

And see what comes.

Lets give us a chance…

You can take your silly love songs And choke on them.

You can take everything And burn.

Just leave me be.

We’re so through you and me

Nearly thirty years

Flushed away to the ocean.

Just leave me be.

You belong with me, 

Moving in the right direction,

Love; lies, all of it.

Walk away, don’t look back,

I was never here,

It all means nothing.

The past is gone,

Forwards only,

You’re no longer there.

No growing old,

No loving forever,

No more comfort,

Just me, myself and I.

All the hope – gone.

All the promises – broken.

All the love – fiction.

I won’t shed a tear,

I won’t speak a word,

I won’t linger on you.

So keep it all,

Take everything I have and am,

Walk away, just don’t look back.

2. Last phone call – Fiona

taken from goddisscussion.com

3. Last text message – Adam

4. Last song you listened – Days Behind – Steve Carlson

5. Last time you cried – Thursday

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice – No

7. Been cheated on – Yes repeatedly

8. Kissed someone & regretted it – Yes

9. Lost someone special – Yes

10. Been depressed – Yes

11. Been drunk and threw up – yes hahaha

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Pink

13. Green

14. Navy

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2011)

15. Made new friends – Yes

16. Fallen out of love – No

17. Laughed until you cried – Yes

18. Met someone who changed you – No

19. Found out who your true friends were – Yes

20. Found out someone was talking about you  - Yes

21. Kissed anyone on your Facebook list – Yes

22. How many people on your Facebook do you know in real life – Nearly all at some point throughout my life

23. How many kids do you want to have – Ideally 3 – 2boys and a girl

24. Do you have any pets – Yes 4 dogs and 6 fish

25. Do you want to change your name – Yes

26. What did you do for your last birthday – Buried my Grandad

27. What time did you wake up today – 7:50am

28. What were you doing at midnight last night – Watching Bones

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for – Handing in my UCAS form

30. Last time you saw your Mother – about 3 hrs ago

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? – Where I lived

32. What are you listening to right now – QI

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom – Yes

34. What’s getting on your nerves right now – Work

35. Most visited webpage – Amazon lol

36. Whats your real name – Now that would be telling!

37. Nicknames – Jude

38. Relationship Status – Single

39. Zodiac sign - Pisces

40. Male or female or transgendered- Female

41. Primary school – Merton House Prep School

42. High School – The Hammond School of Dance and Drama

44. Hair colour – Blonde

45. Long or short – shoulder length 

46: Height – 5ft 9ish

47. Do you have a crush on someone? – Yeah I guess so

48: What do you like about yourself? – My eyes

49. Piercings – Ears

50. Tattoos – Cross on my back

51. Righty or lefty – Righty

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery – 2002 tonsils

53. First piercing – Ears Feb 1996

54. First best friend – Hannah Carlsson

55. First vacation – Ibiza 1985

56. First crush – Michael Lee (aged 4)

RIGHT NOW

59. Eating – Nothing

60. Drinking – Nothing

61. I’m about to – Go to bed

62. Listening to – see earlier question

63. Waiting on – Nothing

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids? – more than anything

65. Get married? – If someones dumb enough to

66. Careers in mind? – Teacher

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes – Eyes

68. Hugs or kisses – Hugs

69. Shorter or taller- Taller

71. Romantic or spontaneous – Spontaneous

72. Nice ass or nice tits – Ass

73. Sensitive or loud – Both

74. Hook-up or relationship – Done with hook ups so relationship

75. Trouble maker or hesitant – Either

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger – Yes

77. Drank hard liquor – Yes

78. Lost glasses/contacts – Yes

79. Sex on first date – Yes

80. Broken someone’s heart – Yes

81. Had your own heart broken – Yes repeatedly

82. Been arrested – Nope

83. Turned someone down – Yes

84. Cried when someone died – Yes

85. Liked a friend that is a girl? – No

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself – Nope

87. Miracles – No

88. Love at first sight – No

89. Heaven – Yes

90. Santa Clause – No

91. Kiss on the first date – Yes

92. Angels – Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

93. Is there one person you want to be with right now? – Yes 

94. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? – No

95. Did you sing today? – Yes

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? – 1960s amazing music amazing clothes so down with it

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? – December 28th

99. Are you afraid of falling in love? – Yes

100. Posting this as 100 truths? – Yep

Bitch	Meredith Brooks
Save Tonight 	Eagle Eye Cherry
Losing My Religion	REM
9 PM	ATB
Gettin' Jiggy Wit It 	Will Smith
Loser 	Beck
Dreams 	Gabrielle
Mysterious Times (ft. Tina Cousins)	Sash!
Ghetto Supastar 	Pras, Ol' Dirty Bastard & Mya
Torn 	Natalie Imbruglia
Say You'll Be There	Spice Girls
Honey 	Mariah Carey
Where Did You Sleep Last Night	 Nirvana
Because We Want To	Billie Piper
Larger Than Life	Backstreet Boys
Tubthumping 	Chumbawamba
Breakfast At Tiffany's	Deep Blue Something
Freak Me	Another Level
The Boy Is Mine 	Brandy & Monica
Could It Be Magic	Take That
I'm Too Sexy 	Right Said Fred
Un-Break My Heart 	Toni Braxton
Together Again 	Janet Jackson
No Limits	2 unlimited
You Get What You Give 	New Radicals
Good Riddance 	Green Day
Bump 'n' Grind	R Kelly
Every Morning	Sugar Ray
A Girl Like You	Edwyn Collins
U Can't Touch This 	MC Hammer
Truly, Madly, Deeply 	Savage Garden
Ice Ice Baby 	Vanilla Ice
You Make Me Wanna...	Usher
Doo Wop (That Thing) 	Lauryn Hill
Don't speak	No Doubt
Show Me Love 	Robyn
No Scrubs   TLC
M.F.E.O. (Cutfather & Joe 7" Mix)	Kavana
Return Of The Mack 	Mark Morrison
Gangsta's Paradise 	Coolio
House of Pain - Jump Around	Other
This Is How We Do It 	Montell Jordan
Livin' La Vida Loca 	Ricky Martin
Mambo #5 	Lou Bega
Mmmbop	Hanson
Baby Got Back	Sir Mix-A-Lot
Baby, I Love Your Way 	Big Mountain
Hypnotize 	The Notorious B.I.G.
Drinking In L.A.	Bran Van 3000
I Got 5 On It 	Luniz
Kung Fu Fighting	Bus Stop
Save The Best For Last 	Vanessa Williams
Vogue 	Madonna
Only Happy When It Rains	Garbage
Got The Feelin' (Radio Edit)	Five
No Diggity 	Blackstreet ft. Dr. Dre
If It Makes You Happy	Sheryl Crow

There are hundreds more but these are the ones that stand out the most. If you have any in particular feel free to share.

The traffic lights flicked from red to green for the hundredth time as Chloe stood watching the passing world. The rain was still falling and the air was thick and heavy, like before a storm that would never come. The smell of car fumes and take away wafted through the open window and she pulled her arms tighter around herself.
“Hey.” Christian’s voice was husky and sleep-filled as he flicked on the light.
“Hey.” Chloe smiled, turning to face him.
“Can’t sleep?” She shook her head. “You want pancakes?” She nodded. “Comin’ right up.” She turned back to the window, hearing Christian pad across into the kitchen area. The sensation of eyes watching her sent a shiver down her spine.
“I’m gonna go get dressed.” Chloe mumbled, scurrying across the room and disappearing into the spare room. She leant against the door and breathed heavily. Her reflection stared back from the full length mirror on the other side of the room. Without looking she could point to every visible scar, but in the dim light of the bedside lamp they screamed angrily. Every line and bump on her arms and legs jumped out at her, revealing the truth of what she had endured. She heard her name beginning called in that familiar accent from somewhere in the distance and panic flooded through her. Her reflection laughing back at her as her eyes flooded with tears.

She reached out and grabbed the nearest solid object and threw it at the mirror, the sound echoing around the room as it shattered to the floor. She jumped, screaming as she felt the door shaking behind her.
“Chlo? Chloe?! Let me in, what’s wrong? Chloe?” she heard the panic in his voice, the faded southern accent, the huskier tone. She wiped her eyes on the shoulder of the t-shirt she was wearing and stepped away from the door allowing Christian to fall through.
He stood wide eyed staring at the shattered pieces on the floor and back at Chloe. His mouth hung slightly open.
“I’m sorry.” she sobbed.
“Hey, hey, hey.” he said wrapping his arms around her and holding her close as she sobbed. “It’s cool, don’t sweat it.” he ran his fingers through her hair, “Come on calm down, you’re safe here.” Christian cupped her face in his hands and looked down at her. The startling blueness filled Chloe with hope and warmth. “Pancakes are ready.” he smiled and kissed her forehead. “Get dressed, you want syrup?”
“Yeah… yeah please.” she stumbled, scrubbing her palm over her face.

“How, ‘bout we take you shopping later, get you some clothes and stuff ‘til your things arrive? My treat.” Christian said putting their plates on the small glass table.
“It’s ok, I can do it myself. You need to get back to work.” Chloe said giving a small smile as she slid into the seat opposite him.
“The office can cope without me for another day, I wanna take you. We can go for a walk down by the river and have lunch in a traditional English pub.”
“Christian,” she sighed “I don’t need a babysitter.”
“Never said you did. Just wanna spend some time with you, other than half awake phone calls in the middle of the night.”
She took a bite of her pancake and moaned in delight “These are better then I remember.”
“Why thank you ma’am.”
“I really appreciate you doing this for me, and as soon as I get a job sorted I’m so spoiling you rotten.”
“Not a problem, it’s my fault you ended up in the situation to begin with, I should have brought you with me.”
“It was my choice to stay with him, I thought things would change eventually.” she sighed heavily and closed her eyes against another swell of tears. “Can we not do this right now? But don’t beat yourself up over it, it wasn’t your fault.”
They ate in silence, the sound of morning traffic floating in the air, unspoken past lingering between them like cobwebs. Chloe shifted uncomfortably in her seat, suddenly regretting the decision to leave her life behind.

Moving on, getting on,
Settling down, holding the tears
The fear, the grief and lose.
Burying it all away
Deep within my soul
Another time another place
Another life…

grief, loss, hatred, love,

heartache.

Mind is dancing with images

scattered upon heavens.

Life is full and its deafening,

longing for an end.

Thoughts fly among the mortal

filling oceans and they’re drowning.

Lost in a sea of love and hate

sailing  toward the never ending;

calling out to be saved,

to be whisked away,

swept into your arms,

seeking comfort.

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How long can three minutes really last? Three minutes is the difference between being on time and missing your subway to work, it’s enough time to make a sandwich or smoke a cigarette.

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Most people would have thought her life was a dream come true, if they knew the truth, but to Lila it couldn’t be further from it.

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Nicki had never thought her life strange or interesting it was just hers, she kept herself to herself and never gave much away to an outsider for fear of being exposed to a world she never could get to grips with.

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Trevor licked his lips as he leant against the open garage door, the sight in front of him wetting more than just his appetite.